Tuesday, May 24, 2011

My Current Top 11 Songs

Well, let's take a break a while from the serious posts. This time I'm going to tell about my current top 11 songs. Current, that means what songs I like to hear recently and always on my playlist. There's no special reason why I choose them, maybe some depicting about my feeling. But some just because I like them. Well, begun from no. 11:

"All I really wanna do is to love you, a kind much closer than friends use... But still I can't say after all we've been through"

This song is about a man who loved his platonic best friend, but the girl already had a boy friend. Unfortunately, she didn't know about it. He just kept it inside. How sad . But the man still didn't want to give up for his love yet 

"If you could see that I'm the one who understands you, been here all long so why can't you see? You belong with me?"

Ehem. This song is about a girl who loves her childhood mate, also her neighborhood, but again, he had a girl friend. But she thought his gf didn't understand the boy's feeling. Just like 'If It Kills Me', the boy didn't notice that she loved him and also his actual feeling. But in the end, the boy noticed and came to the girl.

"The silence isn't so bad till I look at my hands and feel sad, cause the spaces between my fingers are right where yours fit perfectly."

I love this song since it's been aired in early 2010. This song reminds me the time when I did my final project with my best friend. Why? I had no idea. Lol. I most favorited this line:

"Oh if my voice could reach back through the past, I'd whisper in your ear, oh darling I wish you were here..."

"I've made it obvious, done everything but sing it... I've crushed on you so long but on and on you got me wrong... I'm not so good with words and since you never notice the way that we belong, I'll sing it in a love song..."

Yeah, this is the song about a boy who liked his friend for song long but didn't have any courages to say it. Somewhat coward? Likely! Haha~ But, but, I understand, feeling isn't something you can say easily to someone you love, so?

"Lucky I'm in love with my best friend... lucky to have been where I have been..."

Oh damn, I can't make a link for an official video. Blogspot prohibited that? 
Even it's not a broken heart song, but I like this song since it's aired in July, 2008 (at least I knew this song in 2008, haha). Romantic song and easy to sing it :p

"Maybe I'm wrong maybe I'm right maybe I just let you walk by... What can I say? Maybe I've known you all my life..."

Yeah! This is my most favorite song ever from David Archuleta. Not only his beautiful voice, but I also love the message of this song! Yes, it's about finding Mr./Mrs. Perfect for us. So don't worry, someday we'll meet her/his, for those who still stays single currently (like me ;p). We'll never know whether he/she is the one we've known for so long, someone new, or someone else? Only God knows :)

"They say give it time, give it time and it will fall in line... But I keep wondering how and when and why I haven't met you?"

"Losing you, well it's been the hardest thing to do... so I close my eyes and tell myself that somehow I'll survive..."

The point of this song is someone that couldn't even change someone's heart. He loved her but she didn't love in return, yeah such an unrequited love. I love this song, especially the line I wrote above.

"I'm alive but I'm losing all my drives... cause everything we've been through, cause everything about you..."

Actually it's kinda hard to choose the order for the top four! I always listen to these songs, on and on, every time I play the music player. Well, the song is for the despair, those who lost their love while so many mementos remained in the heart. It's sad, sad, and sad!

"Why I live in despair? Cause wide awake or dreaming I know she's never there... and all the times I act so brave I'm shaking inside, why does it hurt me so?"

Oh seriously, listening to this song especially the line above, I really wanna cry... . That much? Maybe! Much more represents my feeling D: Acting out so tough, showing off my smile while I'm badly hurt inside.

"Girl I know we had some good times, it's sad but now we gotta say goodbye... girl you know? I love you I can't deny..."

A couple that thought they weren't meant to be. Separation was the best way for them. Hmm. That song snippets really stab me to the core, especially this one:

"I know it hurts so much but it's best for us... somewhere along this windy road we lost the trust..."

"I shouldn't love you, but I want to... I just can't runaway... I shouldn't see you but I can't move, I can't look away..."

I think I should take up almost all the lyrics since this is the top one! Hmm why top one? Any special reasons you don't have to know :p
Well, a boy loves a girl, but a girl had a boy friend. Ironically, they're best friended. Every time the boy convinced his heart not to fall for her. He should not love her, but from the deepest of his heart, he wanted to and can't even run away.

"And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not, cause I don't know how to make this feeling stop..."

He should feel fine while looking the girl he loved together with her boyfriend, everytime, but he couldn't. He had no idea how to do so since he was totally not feeling right. He also couldn't even stop that feeling...

"Just so you know this feeling's taking control of me and I can't help it... I won't sit around I can't let him win now..."

He didn't have the control of his feeling. He shouldn't let her boyfriend win her heart.

"It's getting hard to be around you, there's so much I can't say... do you want me to hide this feeling and look the other way?"

Why? Because his unspoken feeling made him so uneasy while got near her. Or the girl wanted him to hide the feeling and looked the other way? If for the friendship sake, maybe he forcefully could even he was the one who would hurt so much. But his ego didn't want to do that.

"This emptiness is killing me and I'm wondering why I've waited so long... looking back I realize it was always there just never spoken... I'm waiting here... been waiting here..."

All he could do just waiting and waiting though the emptiness killed him. If only he never had this feeling...


  1. Listening to all these songs reminds me of my past when I had a crush on a sempai. We got along very well til the day I admitted I kinda liked him. I'm a baka, ne? But he was not the one for me *grins* he had another gf who's really nice. Our friendship broke. I wish I had behaved better. I've made a lot of mistakes *grins* up to now. Even if I fell for someone right now, I didn't dare to say it out loud.

  2. But but but I envy your courage, Nga-chan! Unlike me, a real coward and hypocrite D:
    Sometimes having such a platonic friendship is kinda hard to maintain our personal feeling. When one of them is falling for the other one, but just one-sided love, it can danger the friendship itself. D: